Lost almost all Self-esteem (10.02.08)
For the past weeks, and I guess we can talk about months, I observed that I lost self-esteem and I only blame one person for this.
I am a very outgoing person, I love crowd and I love mingling with people and I say what I want and need to say even if it will hurt me or them. I used to be confident about myself and I don't think about negative things about other people, and about myself.
It started when me and my recent ex-boyfriend were having problems with trust and communication. I had been very open with my feelings and I was true with what I feel and what I was showing to him. I never intended any harm, or to fake my feelings because of self interest. And as I have said almost a million times, I am not a faker and a user. We had an issue about me being a faker and that I am just using him for my own sake, which is freakingly not true.
The gap between me and my ex lasted for 2 months or so, I think. And as day passed by, with all the things that he told me, his family's comments about me using him, my self-esteem was drained. I began to think twice or even over and over when I think of something or do something. I lost something that is very important to me. Now, thanks to my ex, I don't even know where to start.
I know that I have to do something about this and bring back the self-esteem that I deserve to have. I am not sure if my ex knew about the self-esteem issue, but I am planning to tell him soon. I need to tell him how he made my life miserable for months and that I need it back and he needs to apologize. I need to get my self-esteem back!
I am a very outgoing person, I love crowd and I love mingling with people and I say what I want and need to say even if it will hurt me or them. I used to be confident about myself and I don't think about negative things about other people, and about myself.
It started when me and my recent ex-boyfriend were having problems with trust and communication. I had been very open with my feelings and I was true with what I feel and what I was showing to him. I never intended any harm, or to fake my feelings because of self interest. And as I have said almost a million times, I am not a faker and a user. We had an issue about me being a faker and that I am just using him for my own sake, which is freakingly not true.
The gap between me and my ex lasted for 2 months or so, I think. And as day passed by, with all the things that he told me, his family's comments about me using him, my self-esteem was drained. I began to think twice or even over and over when I think of something or do something. I lost something that is very important to me. Now, thanks to my ex, I don't even know where to start.
I know that I have to do something about this and bring back the self-esteem that I deserve to have. I am not sure if my ex knew about the self-esteem issue, but I am planning to tell him soon. I need to tell him how he made my life miserable for months and that I need it back and he needs to apologize. I need to get my self-esteem back!
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