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When one person leaves, how long do we grieve and cry? How long will it take for us to accept and get used to the fact that they are no longer part of our lives, and we are not part of theirs too?

My recent ex boyfriend who is miles away from me still enters my mind from time to time. Like this afternoon, I checked his Friendster profile and I saw that he posted a new photo, and I grabbed it. I put it in my private photos. I also had a chat conversation with him, a civil one but I must say that we were kinda hesitant and I can feel the tension between our conversation.

We had been separated for almost 2 months now and from then on, I still stalk things about him. His myspace account, his Friendster account, his facebook account, and I often google his name to see if there will be new matches under his name. That's what I do. Like my 6-year relationship, we had so many plans together and we were also talking about marriage when we were still together. We even talked about moving to Seattle Washington when we get married because I don't want his ex to stalk and visit him when I am already there in Lakewood Washington. But see, things shifted to a very different and unrealistic situation. There were lies, suspicions, bad words and even said the things that were not supposed to be said. But in spite of what happened, I still save a special place for him in my heart. I still secretly wish that we can rekindle the love that we once had.

Can we really forget someone that has been part of your life? Because as for me, I still think of my oldest and longest relationship until now. I still wish that one day, I can bump into him and maybe have some coffee, or lunch or dinner, whichever. If there's a thing as forgetting someone, then I sometimes want to get those.