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I am EXTREMELY upset today. Aside from having a very stressful shift at work, I learned this morning that prospect and his family is packing things up and moving to Laguna for real. They will be coming over with a truck and pack things up and move there. This really upsets me and makes me freak out inside. Plus I wounded my upper lip because of the Sbarro tumbler I was holding on my way home. And you could imagine my face all frown out. This is not a very good day. I mean, this is suppose to be great because I will be seeing prospect and all but what's happening is entirely the opposite. So, instead of meeting up with him in Alabang, I will be waiting for him here. I even said earlier that I am not motivated to go to Laguna anymore because of what I learned.

Deep in my heart, I was still hoping that things will be better and that they will be moving back here for a couple of months after staying there, but the thought and the fact that they will be getting their things here freaks me out. It means A LOT. IT means they will for real be staying there and I will be left here, ALONE and pathetic. So, the major question is, WHAT IS THE FUCKING POINT???!!! WHAT?!! First and foremost, I am done being in a long distance relationship. I already knew that it is not going to work for me, it's not. The one I had with Bon was a absurd and I cannot afford to be in another one now.

I want to cry and I want to shout until I can't shout anymore. I want to scream my heart out and cry until I get tired. I didn't see this coming. I didn't expected that I'm going to be like this with prospect. Why do these things happen to me? WHY??!!